Off Centered

I think honestly that is what I am.
I'm off centered...
The off centered Frontwoman...
Man it's hard. It really is. I mean I bet it can be much harder down the road, but right now it's pretty difficult. Telling everyone it's going to be okay when you don't even know the next move keeps you up late at night. I just want everything to be okay and complete. I am sick and tired of waiting! We fucking need a drummer! Where the FUCK do I find one though? The Austin School Of Music isn't helping much even though Dave said he would......I need to call him.....
Which bring me to my next problem.
Even though I want it so FUCKING bad I can't seem just to push that aside. It's just a fuckin phone! Why can't I just call those damn fuckn drummers! I mean I did but the spazing wasn't nesseiary.....well I have time to grow.....duh.

That's what's been on my mind for.....almost a fucking year! I see all these other bands making progess...
Katies band...
Anarchy On Mars
Hannahs band...
GodDAMN! What the fuck! Why can't my band be doing shit! Why can't I find a drummer?! This is like my everything and I can't fucking start it! It's like being in a race....Im a racer...and I see all these other racers who have a full team to help them and train them. And their races already started while I'm waiting and watching the guy to sound the whistle! It's horrible! It brings me to tears! ITS THE FUCKIN REASON I CANT SLEEP AT NIGHT! *sigh*

ANYWAY!

How was your day?

mhm... well

Maisie spent the night and we talked about this matter.....we laughed till we peed....as always and watch Berth like in summer.

I'm on Traded Apparitions myspace right now and it hurts.
It hurts like a fucker....

Here's the fuckin commericals....